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Thursday, February 28, 2008

12:19 PM

alright.
i shall blog now.
cos i wont be updating tomoro.
cos ill be over at midahlove place.
gonna overnyte dere.
hahas.
kecoh lahh.
i mean , me farah midah que kae gonna be dere.
imagine how kecohrable its gonna be?
my oh my.
i cant wait though.
:D

next day .
the day.
DANCE COMPETTITION !
omggg.
superr nervous lah okay ?
alright alright.
i shall lyke just do my best.
and see how it turns out to be.
GO ADC GO !
YAY ADC!

MAISARAH ONO ,
IMY LAHHH !
whre'd you goooooooooooo?
):

NADIAH BFFF ,
CONGRATES fer getting into NYP masscomm.
wheeeeee *
cant wait to go skool with you !
(:

hahas.
alright .
i guess im off to bed now.
kindda weary .
so , tooodles ! (:

DANIA : hahahs. ME TOOO ! come tau dis saturday. lovelove youu tra ! (:
JIJA : aites ! no prob ! see you sooon okay ? loveeeeeee you prettaye daughter of mine ! (:
FARAH : aku mmng sentiaser very sweeet ! * wink * hahahs. you always jump lyke a monkey lah. bleahs. xD
ELFY : hahas ! thnks ! :D
MASUD : well well , imy too ! saturday come alright ? (:

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

8:56 AM

dance practice was rather great just now.
had most of our props done.
alright ADC (:
we rockkkk lala !

SUPPORT US OKAY FELLOWW BLOGGERS.
DIS 1st MARCH VIVOCITY ROOFTOP.
ASTRAL DANCE CREW , ADC !
id loveeeeeeeeeee it if you guys come.

to smallboy ,
why'd you do it?
didnt you promise me NOT to do DAT again.
hahs.
and happily you came down just now.
showing me DAT thingy.
it aint cool alright?
it AINT COOL !
* very disappointed *

achid ,
veryyyyyy sad you cant come fer the dance comp.
cos youve got work.
its lyke ,
the first tyme im performing without your SUPPORT and SHOUTS.
my oh my .
im really saddd.
but , i cant really do much bout it.
thnks fer wishing me good luck just now.
):

farahlove ,
take care of your sprained ankle okayyy ?
i wanna see you being retarded jumping up and down lyke some monkey !
hahas.
and thanks fer the songs i asked you to download fer me.
you rockkkkk :D

faiz amy ,
GET WELL SOOOON !
i wanna see dat crazy boy , breakdancing lyke always at sengkang again ! (:

ADClove ,
we can do it.
antidrug.
lets do our best okay ?
i love youuuuuu guys ALOTT ! :D
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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

10:31 AM

alright.
watched iron giant on hbo just now.
yes , the sec 2 literature movie thingy.
oh my , guess wad?
i cried terribly.
i just find that movie oh-so sweet.
really.
i fell in love with an iron giant ?
o--kay , dat sounded wrong.
blahs.

had dance practice .
was great.
nth much to elaborate.
oh my , competition's coming.
3 more days.
and thank you ariff for constantly reminding me the day's nearing.
( yes im being sarcastic )

mr elfy said i sounded minah-ish just now.
oh my ,
having anything to do with minah's sucha disgrace.
pls , minah + sharifah = BIG NONO.
hahas.
though , thanks fer the suggestions you gave fer dance.
(:

okay ,
and so me ajit aiman and syafiq had dis dare thingy.
dat got me laughing soooo badly.
alright , my dare was to go into , omg .
i suddenly forgot wad i had to do.
okay , the STM monster got me now.
hahas.
but but ,
i remembered wad ajit aiman and syafiq's one was though.
ajit - to go inside kiddy palace ask whether dey sell SUSHI.
aiman - go inside jeanyip and ask whether they knew who DICK YIP was.
syafiq ( the most hillarious one of all ) - to go inside converse and ask whether dey sell cat food.

omg ,
i was laughing soooo much over the facial expressions of the sales person of each shop.
hahas ,
ajit aiman and syafiq ,
you guys are great lah.
(:

anyway ,
i am very addicted to this song now.
yesterday - leona lewis.

they can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they can take the music that we'll never play,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday.

till here.
toodles.

FIE : hahas. coool. polymates ! it'd be much better if we're classmates ! (:
WANBOII : hahas. im alright now . my fren , you wont noe . and newaes , thnks fer tagging okay ? (:
RENE : awwww * alright. im trying now. maybe cos i got too attached to him last tyme , so yeahs its kindda hard. but he'll be outta my mind soon. im very sure . thanks aye? (:
FARAHYAU : hahas. I SURE DO ! you guys are the best lah , really ! (:
ELFY : ahhas. elfy elfy , stop being cute lah ! and im NOT a minah lah . sheeeesh ! anyway , youre linkED. (:
MAISARAH : oh ONO , youre always being loved and missed by me. and flood? hahas. yes its only one tag. hahas. cute lah ko. and pizzahut ? i dunnoe ? after my dance competition lah okay ? den we'll go out lyke the old tymes , camwhore and walk all arnd town pretending the town's ours ! alright babe ? (:
MASUD : baby ? uhmmmm , o---kay NOT. and stage FOUR ehhs? mas'ud mas'ud. hahas.

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Monday, February 25, 2008

9:17 AM

HAPPYYYY 18TH HENDRA DERMAWAN.
hope you enjoyed our mini little surprise bdae fer you .
legal ehhs soft2 ? LOL ! (:

currently listening to : because of you - neyo.
o-kay , ill try my best not to cry now.
one of the sweetest songs , well to me atleast.
bring me to the beach , buy me chocs and sing me dis song .
and im all yours !
hahas.
nahhh , im joking.

and and ,
im getting fatter.
lyke really.
fifty kg aint goood.
i soooooo need to go jogging !
yes , ive been telling myself upteen tymes to get my butt up .
jog at the canal.
but ,
its not happening.
boooooo !
):

thrd thing ,
my mum returned the library book.
yes yes , the FIVE PPOL YOU MEET IN HEAVEN book.
omg , i was abt to finish it and she returned it.
how sad?
boooooo tymes TWO !
):

okay ,
i guess ill stop writing now.
i dun feel lyke blogging much.
feeling rather lethargic these few days.
boooooo tymes THREE ?
hahas.

well well ,
toodles !

p.s : shall reply to the tags tmrw okay sweethearts ! (:
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Friday, February 22, 2008

11:03 AM

somtimes i remember .
the times wen i had you.
i thought of the memories.
the good times , the bad times we had together.

was reading some stuffs.
way back then.
those messages , those short little poems you gave me.
tymes wen you said , 'id be there for you forever' .
ive never believed in the term ' forever '.
to think you actually meant wad you said.
see ,
never say hello , if wad you really mean is goodbye.
never say forever cos forever makes me cry.
it does. really.

previously ,
every night , i would constantly thank god for entering you in my lyfe.
cos you used to be the one who always understood me.
the one who's always dere when i needed somebody.
the one who would always brighten my mornings , with your simple " wakeeeeeeeyy wakeeeeeeey "
the one who would act lyke a fool , just to cheer me up.
the one who would say " hey , but i still love you " after every small little argument we had.
the one who would listen to my complains every night without fail.

but ,
now it's all so different.
both of us changed alot.
you moved on , you found yourself a ghurl.
its lyke you just forgot , bout that soul who used to be close to you.
well , the fact is i just cant say goodbye to this thing we had ,
to this small little thing we call friendship.

i always knew looking back to the tears i shed would make me laugh ,
but i never knew looking back to the laughs i had would make me cry.
i care for you.
but do you still do ?

fren ,
i miss you.

(':

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Thursday, February 21, 2008

10:16 AM

dance practice again.
we're making it everyday of the week if possible.
why so ?
comp's coming.
yes the antidrug danceworks thingy.
held at vivocity.
do come down and support us.
first march two o-o eight.
three thirty it starts.
and it'll end by 6.

my grp , adc.
we're gonna be performing last.
so , yeah.
ill love it if you do come and support.
(:

p.s : check out miley cyrus's hit , 'one in a million'.
veryyy goood.

till here.
toodles.

FARAH : hahas. yes , i LOVE it too. :D
QUEE : oh yes we will. hahas ! one day one day ! :D
IDAHH : hahahs. alalalala. but i still love you wadddd. :D
FIE : yes i am. whyyyy ?
NADIAH : hahas ! yay ! i loveeeee you tooooooo . meet up soon again okay ? (:
KAE : ahahs ! dah sah oreooo mama arhhh. woooots ! ;D
FAD : hahas. hellooos , thnks ! (: and you are?
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

9:34 AM

19th FEB 08'

FIRST AND FOREMOST.
HAPPPPPYYYY BDAEEEE NADIAHHHH , MY BOYFRIEND ! :D
17 oreadyy uhhhs.
hope you enjoyed the celebration and the presents me and farah gave you.
all the best in MI and lets go out togetherrrr again one day .
LOVEEEEE YOU ! (:

was up the whole nyte.
arnd 6 in the morning , met up with farah , juffri and syafiq.
we had our breakfast till lyke arnd 9 plus.
den we went home.
omg , imagine how tired i was?
den i slept lyke fer 4 hours.
den up to meet nadiah fer her bdae treat.
den had dance.
exhausted lah cn?
kk , nvm.
enough of dat day.
20th FEB 08'
work .
woke up at 8.
had work.
den went for lunch with farah.
den off to dance.
till arnd 11 plus.
omg.
again , superrr tiring.
i dun tink im having enough sleep.
dammit.
okay nvm.
imma go offline soon lah.
gonna read my book.
den im gonna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
and wake up at 3!
hahas !
xP
oh oh oh ,
i forgot to mention.
i got into nanyang polytechnic.
in the course im in favour of also.
motion graphics and broadcast design.
YAY ME !
ELATED lah can ? :D
den everyday i can see my retarded darlings.
hasmidah and ajit .

wooohoo.
okay ,
goodbye ! :D
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Saturday, February 16, 2008

10:19 AM

you used to talk to me lyke i was the only one around.
you used to lean on me lyke the only other choice was falling down.
you used to walk with me lyke we had nowhere we needed to go
nyce and slow, to no place in particular.

i used to reach for you when i got lost along the way.
i used to listen , you always had just the right thing to say.
i used to follow you , never really cared where we would go,
fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

we used to have this figured out
we used to breathe without a doubt.
when nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
we used to have this under control.
we never thought , we used to know.

at least there's you and at least there's me.
can we get this back?
can we get this back to how it used to be?

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Friday, February 15, 2008

10:05 AM

13th feb
went out with ADC ( dance crew's name )
scout fer our pants fer dance.
and guess wad?
we got dem.
giordano ones ,
cheap . only at 29.90.
hahas.
it was great gg out with dem.
and oh , i tink charles looked really good dat day .
hahas.

14th feb
happy valentines day to everyone.
yeah , couple or not.
went out with farah and mai.
towning.
vivo.
catched a movie.
jumper.
it was great , i tell you.
reallyy good.
i mean the effects and stuff.
coool lahh.
i loike.

i spent a whole lotta money on food.
hahas.
omg lah.
i tink ive gained 5 kg.
hahas.

but anyway ,
i had a greattttt day with my two ghurlfrens .
FARAHYAU and MAISARAH.
hahas .
lub krng many many.
winkwink *
HAHAHA !

oh and i tink the sweetest part was wen we let go of the balloons we got.
ahhas.
only we noe.
(:

oh oh ,
and i ended the day with farah at shopnsave.
mummy asked me to buy serai and tomatoes.
and i dun even haf an idea wad serai is.
but luckily , miss farah saved my day.
hahas.
she choose fer me the serai thingy.
and tomatoes.
and wen i got home ,
my mum said they were goood.
hahas.
farah's goood.
ask her out next tyme for your grocery shopping!
lol !

and oh , i saw that CUTE guy.
sukerrr2.

15th feb
had dance practice with adc.
hahas.
yes , it was gooood.
at least , we polished up certain steps.
hahas.
lyke always , we laughed so much.
loveees *

walked back home with aiman , ajit and fiq.
mcm biaser.
" hougang kn kampung " - taken from ajit.
hahas.

que asked the ghurls to come to her hse to bake cupcakes fer her boyfriend.
but ,
ill pass fer today.
another day perhaps.
bake cupcakes fer US.
hahas.
so yeah , midah and farah's over at her hse now.
baking cupcakes.
aint surprise if they burn the cakes.
HAHA !
JK LAH.
you guys can do it.
show me the end result okay ?

and kae, CHEER UP okay ?
we're all in this togetherr * ( singing to dat song , in my horrible voice )
(:

okayy lah.
gtg now.
gonna skip rope awhile.
den gonna read my book.
den off to beddd.

toodles*

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replies to taggs.
MAISARAH n FARAH : hahas. yes yes finally.
MR KONGMAN : hahas. cool.
PASSERBY : i am , for now. ahahs.
ADEQ : linkED (:
KAE : hahas ! no prob babe. (:
QUE : HAHA ! tau tkper.
RAJAKONG : linkED (:
MR KONGMAN : hahas. oh okayys.
FARAH : hahas. okayyy , thnks ! (:
BLUEEGURL : thnks ! (:
DANIA : hahas. IMY TOOO LAH LALING ! (:
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

9:21 AM

work .
morning shift.

farah came over to ikea.
she claims she was craving fer the ikea NONHALAL hotdogs.
hahahahs !
( okay , i do eat dem too . its chicken wad )
den we went off.
met up with ajit and the gang.
played some old old card games lyke ,
"keluarga gembira" and "org gaji tua".
hahas.
and we did play a whole lotta rounds of taiti.
gerekk arh you ppol.
after dat dinner at RK.
ate my beloved beehoon tomyam.
sdap lah oii !
hahas.
den , slacked with dem.
all the way.
did this trick.
hahas.
style arh.
i was lyke super engrossed in doing it lah.
woooots.

den exchnaged our goodbyes.
and left.
walked home with farah and hendra.
imagine , i walked home from ave 8 RK to my hse.
wooots.
exercise lah.
den farah , walked back to her compassvale home.
and hendra left for his home.
but before dat he said .
" gerek arh jln ngan krng ! "
hahas.
mcm biaser jgk !
bleahs.

okay ,
anyway .
reached home.
bathed.
blablabla.
ate my oreos.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*
* eyebrows up and down continuously *
smallboy called me.
IMISSHIM LAH.
hahas.
dat retarded small little gangster whom i dearly love talking to on the fone with.
why so ?
cos he never fails to talk crap dat cheers me up and makes me laugh sooo much.
hahas.

anyway ,
fazli asked me somethng.
i dunnnoe if i shld do it onot.
im really scared ill screw up the whole thing.
but i tink , it'll be really coool if i could do dat.
but ,
sighs *
FARAH HELP ME PLS.
):

okay .
anyway ,
guess im off now.
gonna read my boook.
yes yes , five ppol you meet in heaven thingy .
toodles (:

and p.s : im very sorry izwan. youre sweet really , but , im sorry.

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Monday, February 11, 2008

9:12 AM

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you
You come with your velvet touch
Can't believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy
Every time I see that sparkle in your eye

- taken from a song.
anyway , i wish i had someone who'd be that .
hahs.

p.s : fyzie , cheer up okayy ? smile :D
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Sunday, February 10, 2008

9:05 AM

first and foremost ,
happy 18th birthday nur atika bte mawan , aka KAE.
hope you enjoyed your day today.

oh and in times of emergency lyke dis.
pegilah activate ko nyer MMS system thingy.
kental arh ko.
hahas.

okay.
ive decided.
to put aside alll my problems.
forgive and forget.
yeah , imma do that.
(:

had work again just now.
it was as usual , great ! :D
riduan the BONCIT was super high lah just now.
shouting here and dere.
hahas.
omg lah.
the whole cafe was super noisy.
riduan and his singing.
zul and his laughter.
sok wah and her " RIDUAN DUN CLIMB , WAIT YOU FALL DOWN "
saifuddin and his " alamak , aku lagik kene cuci ice cream ! "
cik su and her super funny vulgarities
limei and her LIMAU
tham and his " 4D lah 4D ! "
and me with my " watcha gonna kooooolum "
ahahahhas.
i dunnoe wad dat means ,
it just feels fun to say dat.
cmon ppol , say it wimme.
WA-CHA GO-NA KO-LUMMM
;)

after work met mai.
slacked at plaza mac.
i never get bored talking to her.
you rock lah kak YAYA ! xD

adam.
sent him the songs.
he told me some other grps who's joining antidrug asked him to remix their songs also.
popular arh ni DJmaterkecik.
hahas.
i told him , he cannot remix fer dem.
must " JIWA " me and stick to ADC only.
hahahs !
and guess wad?
HE AGREED !
gooooood adam ! ;D

anyway ,
i guess ill stop fer now.
tooodles ! (:

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Saturday, February 09, 2008

11:02 AM

gf had a splendid tyme with her crush*
im glad she enjoyed the day .
im glad she was happy.
when she called me , she was laughing all the way.
all the best with him okay missy? (:

mrcharming asked me out on a date.
i tink its wrong for him to do dat , since he's attached.
im sorry.
i cant go out with you.
think of what your GF will think when he finds out .
even if its a friend - friend thingy.
i cant.

and besides.
ive been having this one on one phobia thingy.
only close frens noe bout it.
hahas.
the reason for all the rejected outings *
hint hint !
hahas !
i must overcome it soon lah.
right?
it will , soooon enough.
hahas.

had work just now.
loved it.
collegues are just ever soooo lovely.
ju put up dis act which was DAMN funny.
wen she screamed over the hotdog cover.
hahas !
super cute ! (:

danial said hello to me during work.
oh my , i miss his younger bro.
yes dat hot one.
ohhhhhhhhh my .
pls come back to work.
i miss dat face of yours !
and now im picturing your face ,
remembering your smses.
remembered the frst tyme you asked me to ride your bike , wen you wanted to send me home.
imy (':
come back please?

ive been telling fadhzly bout my phobia of bike rides.
i dunnoe why.
im just scared to ride bikes.
it all started bcos of dat ONE DAY.
blardy hell.
yahya zack ! i wont forget ehhs.
ECP , BIKE , ROAD , FRONT PART UP !
omg .
nabei you.
hahas !
xP
oh and so fadhzly was lyke saying to me.
" shar , trust me on dis. ride wimme one tyme. if youre still scared , den you dun hafta ride my bike nimore , okay ? tmrw after work. ill pick you up ".
ahahs.
and guess wad my answer was.
" NOOOOOO ! NEVERRRRRRR ! hahahs ! "
den i walked off.
working lah.
cannot talk much.
bleahs ! x)

anyway ,
IMISSFARAHYAU SO MUCH !
i need you back so badly lah babe !
come backkkkkk.
puhleaseeeee !

and ,
ive been thinking .
i tink its over.
im done.
im sorry.

till here.
toodles .
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Friday, February 08, 2008

7:18 AM

waiting for that one wrong move.
and im out.

* aku sumpah aku dah tkder moood nk joget *
or at least , dats what im feeling now.

Y storyy of rafhanah <3 Y

Thursday, February 07, 2008

8:32 AM

blahs.
feeling really pissed now.
no one noes bout it.
im not planning to tell anyone also.
SCREW YOU
grrr.

im letting go of DAT.
lyke , for real.
i aint saying aniting anymore.
since my opinions dont matter ryte?
gonna just shut up.
im just gonna follow wad you say.
mark my words.
and so much for " hey i love you , you love me " .
FCUK.
okay , whatever .

had work just now.
it was good.
i love the sight of my collegues.
lyke wad zul said " you guys are irreplaceable ".
awwww *
today was lyke " WHEN MALAYS CONQUER IKEA CAFE "
hahas.
everyone working was malay.
( so im counting myself as a mly lah. )
hahas.
fadhli , our new supervisor.
he's nyce.
a little mat.
hahas.

FAZLI , imy.
your jokes. and everything else.
haf fun doing admin work.

guess wad?
now den im reading five ppol you meet in heaven.
and im only on the 16th page.
hahas.
nvm nvm.
reading it everyday.
so far so goood.
i mean , it has to be good.
since its one of the bestsellers.

well ,
working in the morning tmrw.
den off to meet adc for prop-doing.
so , i guess im off to bed now.

toodles.
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